Stop, I can live without.
No I can't, I hate this doubt.
Stop it, I'm better off alone.
No I'm not, I'm scared on my own.
Please stop, move on already.
No, I want a family.
Enough, you're wasting your time.
But why is it always on my mind?
You could offer me the perfect body and soul, but I'll still tell you no.
You could make me immortal, but I'll call you a fool.
You could satisfy my seven sins and still won't be happy within.
I don't want everything, I just want one thing.
So don't try to give me the world,
because I won't take it.
All I want, all I ever wanted is a girl.
Asking Her Out
The tension was nerve-racking, every bone was shaking. A violent pounding heart that was on the brink of exploding. He was scared to death, dripping sweat, breathing heavy, a panic attack was only minutes away. His skin was crawling, slowly losing his mind just waiting for it. The hesitation was eating him alive. This was such an intense moment for him, but it was now or never. He was so nervous he couldn't handle it, the urge to puke was getting stronger. His heart was beating faster and faster.
His whole world just stopped. He went from super nervous to unbelievably sad in a second. No. That was her answer, she just said no. It kept repeating in his head over and over and over again. A simple two-letter word shot a hole through his heart. Her voice was so beautiful but so deadly. His head lowered in disappointment, rejection was so painful.
"I do like you, but I don't like you like that." She told him. You could tell she felt sorry from the tone of her voice. He looked into her beautiful blue eyes. They were so mesmerizing, like looking at a sky full of stars. His sight slowly lowered to her chest, he just couldn't help himself. The yellow long-sleeved, low cut shirt she was wearing made it impossible not to stare. She was talking to him, but every word went in one ear and out the other. He was so nervous and she was so pretty, he couldn't look at her face. She stopped mid-sentence and her hand went up.
There's one thing we all can't deny and that's the mindless animal inside us. It craves pleasure, it seeks satisfaction. The creature inside that eats me alive is what I hate. I will never find peace with this beast. I can't kill it so I must live with it. Everyone else lets their animal take control, throwing all their dignity and respect away. They only seek satisfaction. They feed, seed, breed, and leave. I despise those people and that's the side of me I hate the most.
I pray to God, pray to God that you're not already taken
I pray to God, pray to God that you'll let my heart in
I pray to God, pray to God that you'll love me and only me
I pray to God, pray to God and tell him this isn't easy
I tell myself, tell myself that I'll never be good enough
I tell myself, tell myself that this life I live is too tough
I tell myself, tell myself that there must be something more
I tell myself, tell myself a lie and there is nothing more
I stand here, right here and watch the red wind pass by
I stand here, right here and try my hardest not to cry
I stand here, right here and see your broken heart
I stand here, right here and it's tearing me apart
I want you, only you but I know you don't want me
I want you, only you but I know you just want to be free
I want you, only you forever and ever till we die
I want you, only you till the day we can fly
Breed the seed, spread like fire. A filthy act of lust and desire. Animalistic behavior so abusive, so intrusive it's elusive. Kill the dignity for pleasure, kill respect for the moment. A dirty dance that will never seek atonement. Open the skin, feel it within. Nasty and disgusting sin. Animals will never understand. Passion isn't about heartless command. We are human.
Hands are made to hold
That's what I was once told
Why are my hands left cold
Being alone is getting old
A heart beaten, broken and sold
My feelings are about to unfold
I'll no longer be cajoled
I will try my best to stay bold
Stand tall and stay gold Because one day, I'll have someone to hold.
I know that I'm lonely
With no one to hold me
And the day that you told me
You swore that you loved me
And now that you're not here
I know that it's not real
You'll never know how I feel
And now this pain will never heal
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